Hooray!!! It's the 2nd most wonderful time of the year!
There's something about August that makes me so giddy! I've been in my classroom several times already and am growing more and more anxious to meet my new kiddos each day!
This year I am also embarking on a new journey; that of a student teacher! She will start right after Labor Day and I have mixed emotions. I am so excited to share my passion for teaching with her, but also nervous about my Type A personality getting in the way of her creativity! :) So pray for me!
As a new school year begins and I see my coworkers who I haven't seen all summer, I would be lying if I said I didn't have some anxiety about seeing them. Don't get me wrong, I work in an AMAZING school district and a fabulous building with some incredibly awesome people, but each one of them knows this journey that Joe and I are on and I know they are going to be wondering.
I was hoping that I could share some good news on the first day of Institute when we returned, but that's just not the case. I know they will be understanding and won't make me feel uncomfortable but the fact of the matter is, I wanted to bring them good news at the start of this year!
The latest ultrasound revealed that I still have cysts, but that the medicine is helping. However, I have a cyst on my right ovary that seems to be growing, so there is a possibility of surgery down the road. I go back to the doctor in October; Columbus Day to be exact. My midwife was on maternity leave, so I've been seeing the doctor, and I love him as well!
We also recently found out that two of our closest friends are expecting their second child. We are thrilled for them, as they are due in March of 2015!
A small part of me is feeling extremely jealous though, as they have been able to have two children in the time that we have been trying. I had a few hours where I sat and questioned why it's so easy for woman after woman that I know to become pregnant and not me. Why am I the one that has to suffer? Not that I would wish this upon anyone, but sometimes it feels as though I'm the only one going through it. Jealousy is such a nasty emotion and I wish it didn't exist. I'm trying so hard to be understanding of the plan that God has in store for me.
His word tells us in Jeremiah chapter 29, "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."There is so much promise there in that verse alone and it has been a verse that I constantly pray over throughout this journey.
Today's prayer:
-relinquishing control
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